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  • I love Robin Williams.

    Robin Williams is a hero of mine. But that’s not really a deep enough concept to express his role in my life. I have absolutely shaped my approach to life around what I perceived of him as a hero. I never met him. I never received fan mail back from him or did a stand up routine next to him. I don’t have any remarkable story about him – except that I stayed up late, rented, borrowed my way into every piece of work he put out. From Mork and Mindy to the Comic Relief stuff to all of his movies to every late night appearance… I took in all of it as some source-book of how to interact, how to think, how to absorb the world so fully you can be in all of those situations and BE REMARKABLE.

    As a high school senior I thought deeply about the idea of Julliard because of him. I imagined a future in which I could go out to the world and say things he said… not because I rehearsed it but because I was speaking honestly in my synthesis of everything I was taking in. I wanted to be that good only better… even faster on my feet. Even quicker with my wit. Even deeper with my knowledge. Anywhere, in any circle, at any moment.

    And make no mistake, I’m not delusional about Performance vs. Real Life. I read anything I could of his non-performance experiences – from his activism and social engagement to his personal struggles to his ideas about comedy to his appreciation of J. Winters. Robins Williams life, in all its facets, speaks profoundly to me.

    For most of my life the person I’ve been mostly compared to in my approach to everything, even from my own mouth, is Robin Williams. (and I not only don’t hate it, I love it. I want to be that.) I’m drawn to this engagement with the world:

    KNOW EVERYTHING YOU POSSIBLE CAN

    LISTEN TO EVERYTHING (EVERYTHING!) and EVERYONE (EVERYONE!) AROUND YOU

    SYNTHESIZE VERY QUICKLY

    TRY ANY IDEA

    10000000 jokes (ideas) is bound to deliver 1 GOOD ONE, SO KEEP GOING

    ENGAGE EVERYONE SINCERELY and SERIOUSLY

    WALK A BILLION MILES IN EVERYONE ELSES SHOES

    SWEAT

    Yes, Dead Poets Society is one of my top 5 movies. Good Morning Vietnam is also in the top 5. Good Will Hunting is such an important movie to me….. …. …. All these things are quite obvious. Robin Williams dealt with and engaged and seriously considered the entirety of the human experience. For me he is the ultimate synthesis of this absurd and beautiful world.

    The vortex that is postmortem analysis will never change the strange loop that lives on through me and others. Posit what we want about mental illness and depression and comedy and hollywood or whatever else we will try to make it all tidy, it doesn’t matter. Robins Williams is a buddha. He’s one of those rare convergences of vitality that infuses many other souls with purpose. I love you, Robin. Thanks for helping make me, me.

    Robin Williams is a Buddha

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    Aug 12
  • Here’s a short presentation about programming, my philosophical view of it, that is.

    How to Program (PPT)

    How to Program (PDF)

    How to Program

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    Aug 2
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    It’s nearly, if not totally, impossible to remove our deeply held biases, values and contextual history from our raw, sensory perceptions of the world. The difficulty to sense more objectively is what perpetuates so many non-truths about the world. Nearly everything we sense and think is distorted by the biological patterns shaped within us by the world and our interaction within the world. It is within this frame of reference I seek to put down, in an obviously flawed ways, what I think to be at least less non-truth than other theories and thoughts floating about out there.

    Our most basic means of communication, the words, sounds, gestures and pictures, we use are so filled with bias it’s impossible to commit to their use in an objective way. The best hope I have is to present as many variations across mediums so that what emerges from these communications is perhaps, if not objective, at least more fully representative of various perspectives that at least the trap of obvious one-sided subjectivity is avoided.

    And with that warning, let us proceed.

    A first exercise is of definitions and clarifying of terms.

    Everything is information. From the most basic particles of existence to governments to rocket ships to the abstractions of mathematics – everything is information. Information looped and entangeled within other information. Information trapped within patterns of information by other patterns of information. Particles trapped into behaviors dictated by the laws of physics. Proteins and chemicals replicating into biological entities by the encodings of genetic instruction. Objects of pure quantity expressed in combinations dictated by rules of provable logical inference. Symbols imbued with meaning combined to form words and sentences and stories that stick in the brains of people and come out of their mouths to be reinterpreted over the eons. Faintly remembered events strung together by stories to form history and imagined events of some time that has not come to pass forming a future hope.

    More fundamentally… space and time and causality and logic and being itself. All are matters of information. The casual ordering of events in relation to what is different based on the difference of another entity forming the conception of time and space. The coherence within a frame of reference of words strung together with symbols for equal, not equal, for all, and the such coalescing into logic. What is and what isn’t in reference to what’s logically or causally sensible to us becomes the notion of being.

    But this is not quite enough.

    Recently various categories of research, science and/or philosophic discussion have added ’emergence’ and ‘complexity’ to the pantheon of fundamental concepts from which we can chart our maps of existence and meaning. The unseen in the parts that only shows itself in the collective – the multitude – the interactive, this notion of emergence.

    All in – meaning. Meaning is a vague notion of symbolics and representation within the ontological dimensions of space, time, cause, logic, emergence and being. Meaning is proximal, local phenomenon of pattern. In totality, all things considered, that is all of infinity, there is no meaning – there is no pattern. That is, all patterns at play is pure entropy and no meaning is possible on a universal, infinite scale. (As if we can even imagine such a concept). On a local, limited frame of reference meaning emerges from patterns (people, computers, plants, etc) pattern matching (sensing, perceiving, transforming, encoding, processing).

    I propose a phrase: existential equivalence. Every investigative thought, every scientific gesture, every act of art, every attempt to send a message, every ritual, every interaction at all with the world at any level is all of similar thing: the encoding and decoding of information within information. This is not a reduction or a reductionist exercise. Quite the contrary. The varieties of symbolic expression in all of existence is REAL, it is a thing. That existence is expressible in an infinite variety is necessary. and it can only be known, even in a limited way, by actual variety of expression. If anything is to exist, it must exist in infinite variety and multiplicity. Everything that exists has existential equivalence. The entirity of existence is relational.

    For instance if there is such a concept and sensation of color it must have expression in physical and artistic and literary terms. It exists at all levels implicated there. If a wavelength of light is able to generate a visual and neuronal concept we called red, then red isn’t just the wavelength, nor the wave of light, nor the eye, nor the brain, nor the word… it is all of those things and all of the things we do not yet think or talk or gesture about.

    Or consider a computer program. Its existence is a string of words and phrases transcoded into 1s and 0s and into physical logical gates transmitting electrons and back around and on itself into monitor LEDs into human eyes and brains into motor movements of mouse and keyboard and so on. A computer program is the interaction of all the information.

    But surely there are such simple things that do not have a universal relationship – an existential equivalence? what is the simplest thing we can think or speak of? a boson? the number 1? a dot? just an abstract 1? It is impossible to wipe the complexity of existence from even these pure abstractions. We only conceive of their simplicity in relation to other concepts we find complex. Their simplicity must be weighed against everything that isn’t simple.

    And so here we have a collosal contradiction. Patterns are a local phenomenon. They aren’t the entirety. And yet I’ve suggested that patterns are existence – all that exists. Unraveling this I am directly saying that patterns interpreting/transcoding/sensing patterns is what exists – creates th world – at all levels. Pure relation, which is only possible at a local level, is existence. Particles only exist in relation to other particles – a gradient. Humans to other humans, to animals, to the planet, to particles. Planets to other massive bodies… and so on, and on, up and down, left to right, back and forward, in and out….

    herein lies a beautiful thing – mathematics and computation are a wonderfully efficient symbolic translation methods. This is why computers and mathematics always creep their way into our efforts to make things and make sense of the world. It is why our brains are so damn useful. complex abstract pattern recognizing patterns – these networks of neurons. It is why DNA is so proficient at replication. a “simple”, resilient substrate carrying everything necessary to generate and regenerate these networks of neurons that can then make synthetic networks of pure relation. Whether particles or quantum or digital or biological or chemical there is pure relation, pure patterns among patterns – there is math. It matters not and is completely the point that math and computation can be done in any substrate – between proteins, with pen and paper, on a calculator, in a quantum computer.

    AND

    why is that? WHY?

    In a feat of complete and utter stupid philosophy and unlogic… because it cannot be any other way. Positing a god doesn’t escape this. Positing a multi-verse doesn’t escape this. If any of those things are to exist, they must exist still in relation – they are relation! It’s borderline mystical. Of course it is!

    And why does any of this matter? is this just another sound of one hand clapping? a tree falls in a forest does it make a sound? Yes. yes indeed. Those, while used to dismiss the question from the outset actually do call attention to the entirety of the situation. What we conceive of as existence and existing is usually reductively done in by our discrete categorization and our failure to continuously review and revise our categories. The practical implications of this adherence to categories (zoology, isms, religion, gender, nations, science disciplines, etc) is what stunts our path towards knowledge and keeps us in fear.

    If we don’t lean into the idea that everything has an existential equivalence we are simply deciding to be ignorant. And in that ignorance we trend towards non-existence. In every day terms if we see the human population only by the color of skin we diminish human existence. If we say and take for truth all of the -isms, reductions, and arbitrary definitions we snuff out relation. If we make any assumptions at all and refuse to question those assumptions, even what we think are so obvious and so simple, we move closer to entropy. If we want to exist at all, we must be mystical and fanatical about sensing relation, resensing it, re-interpreting it. This is not a moral argument. Existence is no more moral than non-existence – except as a local conception.

    It really does come down to this (and this is very Camus-like):

    If you care at all to exist as you, you must question/express/relate to everything as much as you can before your pattern is fully transcoded into something not you. (we are just food for worms…)

    So yes, ask yourself and answer it in infinite variety over and over “if a tree falls in a forest does it make a sound?” This is life – it is your existential equivalence to everything else. You relate, therefore, you are. I relate, therefore I am. X is, therefore X relates.

    I relate, therefore I am. and everything else.

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    Aug 2
  • Today i was challenged to write like i talk about the things that i wax academic about. so here’s an attempt to do that as much as i or anyone can do to write as i talk as i want to be heard. i still maintain that it’s not really a useful thing to go making a specific attempt to speak to an assumed audience in an assumed style of language (or whatever we mean by speaking to an audience). the advice to do this comes in these statements:

    dumb it down
    fit the audience
    read your audience
    speak like me
    laymans terms
    talk to regular people
    don’t be exclusive
    you’re elitist

    and many other variations.

    What i really think?

    the truth of things are what they are. that is… you speak, write, paint, pant, act, dance, work, do nothing, exactly how the situation demands. to try to represent something as something it isn’t is just stupid and delusional.

    don’t try to make a really fancy physics theory into a childish song. don’t make jazz into some crappy magazine article about music. things exist as they are. let the perceiver, ok, sorry, the AUDIENCE, come to it as they will, when they are ready.

    not everything… in fact, most things… aren’t about selling a ticket or a download or monetizing an eyeball.

    no bullshit.

    regular talk.

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    Jul 16
  • Yesterday someone told me that science was contingent and logic necessary.

    I struck the stone – at first lightly
    Then I dug in and drew blood.

    Fractured assumptions flared their flimsy premise
    Crumbling before less than mighty blows

    This someone warned me if you crack too hard
    The stone carries impact damage
    Scaring the surface
    Forcing you to sand and polish

    That is if what you care about is something smooth and approachable.

    Will this stone yield to me?

    Or am I yielding to it?

    My logic battering it tink after tink
    Forces my theory that no matter what I do
    This stone will be what it is
    And it is up to me, flawed and frayed, to ask
    It questions

    The response is Wittgensteinien. Silent and yet understood
    A brooding proposition of certain doubt
    That nothing yields everything.

    Will this stone yield to me? (a poem)

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    Jul 4
  • I got into a discussion this week with a fellow technology focused person about whether CREATION is a thing. That is, do we actually create anything. My position is that there is no creative act. No source of creativity. There is search and selection by consequences. Everything in existence, and particular our lives from our gene code to our behavior to the software we write is a search through the space of possibilities and a relentless selection by consequences that maintains possibilities that survive more consequences. The creative act is a notion that’s perhaps useful to communicate unfamiliar or low frequency of occurrence possibilities but it’s not a fundamental thing into itself.

    Why I care about this argument? Assuming CREATION as a thing leads to all sorts of false notions that anyone or thing is responsible or should get credit for what happens in the universe. And this practically played out is the source of most of our inequality and makes sure we don’t actually explore possibilities without bias. Exalting the “creative” and the “creators” blinds us to the infinitude of possibilities, most lurking right under our very confused senses and conditioned context.

    Creativity is not a thing

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    Jun 29
  • The day of my first child’s birth (July 4th, 2003) remains one of the formative experiences of my life. Yes, it was a holiday and the day Barry White died and she was born as the sun was going down and the fireworks were sounding off (I swear this all happened as gloriously as you’re thinking). That’s all the pomp though it’s the instant change in circumstance that made it formative.

    All the thinking and imagining before a child’s birth did not prepare me for the reality of the moment when your child screams her first cry and you realize as a dad it will be your responsibility to keep that child alive until she can fend for herself.

    An instant romantic all encompassing wave of movie like love didn’t wash over me in that moment. A profound sense of fatherly protection did. We don’t have much control about what happens in life but I somehow felt and still feel I did have some say in that (and my other daughters) life coming to be. If I had the nerve to create I needed to have the courage to protect my child.

    This sense of protection grows more nuanced as I age and my daughters age. At first it was just about feeding, sleeping, breathing and mom. Making sure that baby was touched and it’s body could grow. And now it’s still about those things and it’s about education and relationships and sensitivity and awareness and self actualization. And ultimately the biggest act of fatherhood is letting go. That time will come. It’s not here yet.

    The love, O the love! Of my daughters is unbearably deep sometimes. It was never love in an instant for me, it’s been an extensive root system that as our lives become ever more intertwined I realize how profoundly their existence is in some sense my existence and that their protection is my own protection. They give to me not out of obligation nor some sense of knowing what I’ve ever been through (pity) but because children don’t have the baggage of a noisy world. They love me in such beautifully simple ways.

    The most incredible pride I feel about being a father is that my daughters love each other so much. They are best friends and defenders of each other. They are very different persons but they go together so well. What more could I hope who above all as a dad wants his children to survive and thrive? I want them to have a life long companions who will love them and share the pain and joy and bumps and journeys regardless of all the mistakes they will make.

    The more my daughters are able to integrate and shape the world of their own and need less of me and my protection the more of a father I feel I become. It’s one of those zen things. The more they become themselves and go out in the world the more love of them as themselves I experience.

    And the birth of my daughters was also formative in that it softened my own view of my dad.

    God do I love my dad. All those times he pushed me to “stop bitching and just do it” or got me up real early to go fishing or threw a football or earnestly played me in chess and didn’t just let me win. All these times he said get a job or eat your meat first… And ultimately, “Russell, you’ll be lucky to count close friends on one hand when you get older” to remind me that friends matter and you need to cherish them in this world.

    All these things seemed here goes dad again. These sayings and actions making me uncomfortable as a kid. And once I had kids I realized that’s why dad did it. That’s why. He had to keep me alive long enough so that he could love me.

    Happy Father’s Day to everyone.

    Happy Father’s Day aka learning to love

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    Jun 15
  • I finally took the time to consume the “leaked” NYTimes Innovation Report.  (on scribd and their story on it here http://www.nytimes.com/times-insider/2014/05/30/we-met-the-story-and-it-was-us/)

    It is a remarkable business and cultural document even though I found most of its conclusions and recommendations to be off the mark.  It starkly shows just how unsettled we are as a culture here in the US, especially because of media and technology.   The authors oddly make no commentary about a complete lack of engagement that majority of the population has in important topics even though the data in the report they so carefully analyzed clearly shows.   That it is this easy for media entities to lose and gain audiences is a clear indicator that no one really is doing anything other than arbitraging various mediums for traffic.

    There are a few examples in there that represent important topics, such as the Snowden/NSA story (media won by The Guardian) and the Michael Sam story (which they draw out a use case).  Unfortunately they spend more time in the report analyzing and regretting how they didn’t better take advantage of that story to drive traffic.  No where is it mentioned that their mission is to drive civic engagement or improve knowledge in the population and that they analyzed their and the competition progress on those dimensions.  

    I have no doubt that at the core of NYTimes there is a really big mission to do journalism that matters in ways that have the most impact.   However, this report almost demotes that concept totally.   And in doing so the report really suggests measuring and experimenting with gimmicks (SEO, social viral tricks, a/b testing image / headline selection) is more important than measuring impact on knowledge in the population and impact to policy making and the government.   You get good and stay good at what you pay attention to (measure).   Please NYTimes don’t get good at SEO above being the BEST at having an impact on the knowledge of the world.

    An example that starkly shows this… the cooking/recipes work they are doing.  Why spend any time and money on that?  there are millions and millions of recipes on the web and in apps.  There are 100s of successful cooking apps out there.   What unique impact is NYTimes having by grabbing eyeballs for this “evergreen content” from the “archives”.   There is important work being done at the NYTimes so take the people working on Cooking Apps on focus on heart and sole of the NYTimes.

    It’s very much a report about keeping the business growing.   Which is definitely an important thing.  However, the gimmicks of the day are not the answer.   Don’t worry about playing games trying to entice more readers into the Daily Report.  The language in the report already conditions the thinking – shows me that they aren’t yet grokking the situation.  NYTimes doesn’t have readers anymore.  It has users.

    The NYTimes could be a platform, the platform for knowledge and impact.   Its competition isn’t general news media.   It’s the network of knowledge platform technologies.   The search engine and the social network and the app store – the platform technologies are what has disrupted them, not competitors with inferior products exploiting new technologies.  These info organizing, creating and sharing platforms are the technologies and services and products that are having an impact.

    I’m more bullish on NYTimes than it seems they are.   I happen to believe that NYTimes has far more impact on the world than all the competition they named combined.   Getting mentioned on Buzzfeed does nothing for a person or business or policy issue.   If most of the competition they mention went away tomorrow no one would bat an eye, the Google index would easily replace the link bait with something else.   If the NYTimes went away we would lose a major cornerstone / market maker for knowledge and depth and truth.   The NYTimes still shapes the world around it.  It has the unique position, because of it’s long held mission and depth to make the platform of impact in the future.

    This is wild stuff, i know.   But really… all its media competition isn’t even close in impact nor resources nor value as Google or Facebook or Amazon….  the really foundation of our information existence.

    The next big knowledge platform isn’t yet here, why couldn’t NYTimes be the one to build it?

     

     

    NYTimes Innovation Report Misses The Really Big Point: It is a Platform for Impact

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    Jun 14
  • We all are programmers.   And I want to explain what programming really is.  Most people think of it as a writing instructions that a computer will then interpret and go do what those instructions say.   In only the simplest sense is this fully encompassing of what programming is.

     

    Programming in the broadest sense is a search through computational universe for interesting patterns that can be interpreted by other patterns.   A few definitions are in order.   A pattern is simply some set of data pulled from the computational universe (from my own investigations/research/logic everything is computational).  Thus a pattern could be a sentence of English words or a fragment of a program written in Java or DNA strands or a painting or anything else.   Some patterns are able to interact with other patterns (information processing) such as a laptop computer can interpret Microsoft Office documents or a replicated set of DNA (a human) can interpret Shakespeare and put on a play.   A program is simply a pattern that interacts with other programs.

     

    When we write programs we are simply searching through the space of symbolic representations in whatever programming language.   When a program doesn’t work/doesn’t do what we want, we haven’t found a pattern of symbols that’s interpreted the way we prefer or the processing pattern can interpret.  We sometimes call that “bugs” in the software.   Underneath it all it’s simply another program, just not the one we want.

     

    I call it a search to bring particular activities to mind.  When we say we write a program or create a program it seems to engender only a limited set of methods to find programs by a limited set of people, called programmers.   Calling it a search reflects reality AND opens our eyes to the infinite number of ways to find interesting patterns and to interpret them.   The space of programs is “out there”, we just have to mine it for the programs/patterns we wish to interpret.

     

    Programs/patterns that become widely used owe that use to the frequency that those patterns can be interpreted.  For example, Windows or MacOS have billions of interpreting machines in which their programs can be interpreted.   Or on an even bigger scale, DNA “programs” have trillions of interpreters on just this planet alone.

     

    Using a program is nothing more than interpreting it.  When you type a document in MS Word the OS is interpreting your keystrokes, refreshing the screen with pixels that represent your words, all while MS word itself is checking for grammar put in place by programmers who interpreted a grammar reference and so on and so on.   For sufficiently complex programs we aren’t able to say if a program “does the right thing.”.  Only simple programs are completely verifiable.   This is why programs exist only as patterns that are interpreted.

     

    Humans have become adept at interpreting patterns most useful for the survival of human genes.  With the advent of digital computers and related patterns (tech) we are now able to go beyond the basic survival of our genes and instead mine for other patterns that are “interesting” and interpretable by all sorts of interpreters.  I don’t know where the line is on good for survival and not, but it’s really not a useful point here.  My point is that with computers we’re able to just let machines go mining the space of existence in much grander ways and interpreting those results.   Obvious examples include the SETI project mining for signs of aliens, LHC mining the space of particle collisions, Google search mining the space of webpages and now human roadways, Facebook mining everyone’s social graph and so on.  Non obvious examples include artists mining the space of perceptively interesting things, doctors mining the space of symptoms, and businesses mining the space of sellable products and so on.

     

    Let me consider in a little more detail that last one.  Every business is a program.  It’s a pattern (a pattern of patterns) interpreting the patterns closest to it (competition and the industry) and finding patterns for its customers (persons or government or companies or other patterns) to buy (currency is just patterns interpreted).   Perhaps before computers and the explosion of “digital information” it wasn’t so obvious this is what it is.  But now that so much of the world is now digital and electronic how many businesses actually deal with physical goods and paper money?  How many businesses have ever seen all their employees or customers?  How many businesses exist really only has brief “ideas”?   What are all these businesses if not simply patterns of information interpreted as “valuable?”.  And isn’t every business at this point basically coming down to how much data it can amass and interpret better/more efficiently than the competition? How are businesses funded other than algorithmic trading algorithms trading the stock market in high frequency making banks and VCs wealthy so their analysts can train their models to identify the next program, er, business to invest in…..

     

    When you get down to it, everything is programming.  Everything we do in life, every experience is programming.  Patterns interpreting patterns.  

     

    The implications of this are quite broad.   This is why I claim the next major “innovation” we all will really notice is an incredible leap in the capability of “programming languages”.   I don’t know exactly what they will look or feel like but as the general population desires to have more programmability of the world in a “digital” or what I call “abstract” way the programming languages will have to become patterns themselves that are generally more easily interpreted (written by anyone!).   The more the stuff we buy and sell is pure information (think of a future in which we’re all just trading software and 3d printer object designs (which is what industrial manufacturers basically do)) the more we all will not want to wait for someone else to reprogram the world around us, we all will want to do it.   Education, health care, transportation, living, etc. is all becoming more and more modular and interchangeable, like little chunks of programs (usually called libraries or plugins).   So all these things we traditionally think as “the real world” are actually becoming little patterns we swap in and out of.  Consider how many of you have taken an uber from your phone, stayed at an airbnb, order an eBook from amazon, sent digital happy birthday and so on…. Everything is becoming a symbolic representation more and more easily programmed to be just how we want.

     

    And so this is why big data is all the rage.  Not because it’s a cool fad or some new tech thing… it’s because it’s the ONLY THING.   All of these “patterns” and “programs” I’m talking about taken on the whole are just the SPACE OF DATA for us to mine all the patterns.   The biggest program of all is EVERYTHING in EXISTENCE.  On a smaller scale the more complicated and complex a program is the more it looks indistinguishable from a huge pile of data.   The more clever we find our devices the more it turns out that it’s an inseparable entanglement of data and programs (think of the autospell on your phone… when it messes up your spelling it’s just the data it’s gleaned from you….).  Data = programs.  Programs = data.   Patterns = patterns.   Our world is becoming a giant abstract ball of data, sometimes we’re symbolizing but more and more often we’re able to directly compute (interpret natively/without translation) with objects as they exist (genetic modification, quantum computing, wetware, etc.).   In either case it’s all equivalent… only now we’re becoming aware of this equivalence if not in “mind” then in behavior or what we expect to be able to do.

     

    Face it. You are a programmer.   and you are big data.

    YOU ARE A PROGRAMMER/BIG DATA, WE ALL ARE.

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    Jun 8
  • There will be no understanding. There should be no blame.

    Our section of the world is confronted yet again with unexplainable suffering taking the shape of so many other recent events. A person, a lonely agenda, a gun, a manifesto, a set of targets, an “obvious” back story, a chance to intervene, the event, the scramble, the rage online, the blame, the investigation, the pontifications, the closing, the moving on, repeat.

    The narrative is too simple. Every aspect of it hides complexities that would reveal at almost every turn that we are not in control and we cannot predict. Our easily tricked pattern recognizing brains piecing it all together try to draw connections and signs and ways it could have been different. It couldn’t. Not this event.

    Any solace drawn from conclusions and blame is hollow and destined to be violated.

    And yes the question is a valid one and one worth investigating: how can this be different?

    It’s answer, which should NEVER settled down to THE answer, is not a simple narrative about a single event and a single person. The question should spawn a web of questions and should forever.

    The meta issue is conclusion.

    When we conclude we have reduced the world and the situation. We do not consider all the factors. When we conclude we have decided we know far more than we possible can.

    Peace comes not from a false conclusion (police should have known, young white males with money do X, gun control, …). Peace may never come. Maybe that’s part of the ongoing issue is that we seek concepts and ideas and states of being that aren’t anything, can’t be obtained.

    Sometimes when these events exist I have extreme sorrow. I’m sorrowful when light of lives are snuffed out. This happens every day all over the planet in all sorts of senseless ways. Though I’m not sure you can call any life or death full of sense.

    In the face of inconceivable complexity I am left only to ask questions and through those questions love and honor this brief experience of life. It’s not usually peaceful but it is living.

    Too Simple – conclusions are the issue.

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    May 25
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